Off Topic.. Depression

In my mind.. depression is one of the most awful illnesses a person can have. Living day to day with a voice in the back of your mind talking shit, and no engery to boot.

In Canada....

Who is affected?

• Mental illness indirectly affects all Canadians at some time through a family member, friend or colleague.
• 20% of Canadians will personally experience a mental illness in their lifetime.
• Mental illness affects people of all ages, educational and income levels, and cultures.
• Approximately 8% of adults will experience major depression at some time in their lives.
• About 1% of Canadians will experience bipolar disorder (or “manic depression”).

How common is it?

• Schizophrenia affects 1% of the Canadian population.
• Anxiety disorders affect 5% of the household population, causing mild to severe impairment.
• Suicide accounts for 24% of all deaths among 15-24 year olds and 16% among 25-44 year olds.
• Suicide is one of the leading causes of death in both men and women from adolescence to middle age.
• The mortality rate due to suicide among men is four times the rate among women.

Why am I talking about this.. because again it has hit me like a brick wall. I have fallen so far off the wagon that I cant even see it anymore.. and I feel like life as I know it may end.

I feel awful, and I haven't worked out in days, and seem to eat EVERYTHING in sight. I have no control right now.

I am currently working on a new workout.. I'm not sure if I will stick to the 21 day fix, or pick something else. I will give myself the weekend to recoup and spend time with my daughter, then I will hit it again on Monday. I need this.